CURRENT STATUSS
FEELING: hmm...nothing
DOING: absolutely....nothing
WEARING: red old navy shirt and sweats from AE
WEATHER: it was kinda chilly when i was outside a few hours ago...but its pretty warm during the day
AT: my dad's house
LISTENING TO: nothing
DRINKING: as always, nothing
EATING: just finished eating dinner. there was celery. eek.
WANTING: to go somewhere. do something. IT'S FRIDAY NIGHT. I'M SUPPOSED TO BE PARTYING. but no. i'm stuck at MY DAD'S HOUSE. argh.
my research paper for english is driving me ABSOLUTELY CRAZY!!! i've been at it for...who knows how many hours now, and still trying to find the exact same topic that i just CAN'T FIND. well, nothing that fits anyway. how r u supposed to write about technology of japan in 1989?! well. doesn't matter cuz i've decided to just make a bunch of bs up. WHO CARES ANYMORE. cuz I DON'T. and if I DON'T CARE, nobody does. ARRRGGGHHHHHH!!!!! ANYWAY. wow. i haven't blogged for a while now. i probably COULD'VE found time to blog if i really wanted to, but i'm kinda starting to think blogging is boring, so i haven't done it for a while. nothing much is happening in my life. AS USUAL. my idiot EX has asked my VERY STUPID AND DUMB AND IDIOTIC EX friend to PROM. and the stupid dumb idiot ex friend of mine had to IM me just to FRICKIN TELL ME that he asked her. i'm like...WELL. U KNOW WAT. SCREW YOU! DO I GIVE A CRAP WHAT THAT IDIOT EX OF MINE DOES ANYMORE? NO. I DEFINATELY DON'T. gosh. seriously. i've been trying to get him OUT, and i'm mean TOTALLY AND COMPLETELY, OUT of my life. it hasn't been working well AT ALL so far. cuz he's friends with so many of my friends, that all of them always talks about him. and...ARGGGGGHGGGGGGHHHHHH. its driving me CRAZY. absolutely INSANE. it's like...can't he get his OWN GIRL FRIENDS at school?!!!! i know he's desperate for ANY girl to even just GLANCE at him, but stay away from MY friends!!! i don't wanna HEAR ABOUT HIM EVER AGAIN. AND IF HE'S FRIENDS WITH MY FRIENDS, THAT AIN'T EVER GONNA HAPPEN!!! he's really messed up my brain. REALLY. i was totally normal b4 i met him. now, i'm this insane, psycho lunatic who should belong in an asylum. i don't know if i still have feelings for him or not, but either way, i want him out of my life FOREVER. and crap. i'm still not finished with the LAST ONE of my mini essays. it doesn't even have to be a page long! just 3 paragraphs! and i can't even do that! i'm having serious problems. i hate school. i really hate it. and right now, i don't exactly like LIFE either. ARGH.
wow. my layout suddenly changed. how the heck did that happen?! cuz i didn't do A THING. thats REALLY weird. i was thinking that my friend might've helped me do it, but she couldn't have, cuz she doesn't know my password. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....*scratches head* OH. i THINK i know. i add this template a long time ago, but that was when i had the demo pro account thing, but now it's expired, so maybe thats why...well. whatever. i don't have time to do blog anyway. i like never go online anymore. i used to go online like EVERY SINGLE DAY and now i go online like...once every...week. ha. i have lots of hw to do. big research paper. :S better get going on it..
yep. my "baby" is still "sick", so i haven't been going online at all this past week. u know what i decided? making a website just takes WAY too much time. time that i don't have and things that just WON'T cooperate with me(i.e. my computer). i think i'll just wait until next year, when i'm gonna take my web design class. cuz i dunno how to do any html crap, so it's proving to be hard to make a CUTE site that i want. so i'll just stick with tblog for now. anyway. nothing much has been happening this past week. well. its SPRING BREAK though! :D yesterday i went out with my friends to see a movie and to the mall. finally went SHOPPING! yay. bought a cute skirt that i absolutely ADORE, a shirt, and victoria secret's lotion-mmmmmmmm! all for a good price. me and my friend kinda did a "surprise" party for her yesterday, cuz its her 18th bday next week. yep. i thought it should be special, cuz u know. EIGHTEEN which means she's out of her TEENAGE years. but anyway. heather and i used to be pretty good friends. we were friends since we were in like...diapers. but things have changed and we're not so good friends anymore. maybe that's why she prefers hanging out with my friend's PARENTS, who are also her "godparents", over me and my friend. i really don't get her. she's WAY too mature for her age. like WAY. seriously...yesterday she hung out with my friend's parents! she needs some serious help. SERIOUS. anyway, i guess it's all good though, cuz i don't really like hanging out with her that much since she's so OLD. `
yay! my friend(GOOD GOOD FRIEND) helped me figure out the layout thing so i can finally have a cooler website now! i'm so excited! here's what it looks like: http://prettychick.blogspot.c... i'm in the process of fixing all the links and adding everything, so there really isn't anything on it yet. but i really like the layout! anyway...i haven't been going online cuz of course, my "baby" has been "sick". actually, my dad kinda fixed it since last sat. but then the stupid monitor cable thing was like broken or something, so i couldn't go online till today. something EMBARRESSING happened to me today. i was at my little sister's ballroom concert thing, and i was sitting at the back right against the wall. and i was standing up on the chair so i could see, but i was getting tired. so i was gonna sit on top of the back of the chair, but i couldn't cuz the back was right up against the wall. so i was like pushing the chair forward and i like totally killed myself and fell backward landing on my back. it was SO EMBARRESING!! :S haha...but it was kinda funny now that i think about it. everyone around me was STARRING. :oops: haha...yep. i've recovered though. its a good thing i didn't know anyone...
*sniff sniff* my poor baby is SICK. so sick she can't do anything. AT ALL. but lay on her bed and sleep...WAAAHH. i decided that my computer is my baby just barely...cuz i NEED it. I HAVE A FRICKIN ENGLISH PROJECT DUE IN A FEW DAYS AND IT HAS LIKE A MILLION FRICKIN VIURES AND WON'T WORK [b]WATSOEVER[/b]!!! arrrrrrrrrrgh. I really [b]hate[/b] my baby sometimes...its OLD and its SLOW. and it NEVER WORKS. i'm in the process of finding a new baby. maybe my bed should be it. i do love my bed...oh dear. i'm SO FRICKIN bored i can't think of anything to write and MY COMPUTER IS AFFECTING MY BRAIN. its not working. its not. i need to get out of here...
yep. every single one of my friday nights are the most exciting things [b]EVER[/b]. i get to go to my dad's house to "bond and spend quality time with each other", but really everyone just does their own thing. me and my sister goes online while my dad and my stepmom does...who knows what. great isn't it? that's how my friday nights have been like...my whole life. :S OH WELL. i'll only have to have my friday nights WASTED for a year or two. then I'LL BE OFF TO COLLEGE! [b]WOOHOO[/b]! i really need to learn to be more independent. what am i gonna do when i'm all by myself? i've lived in "happy valley" UTAH, where i'm TOTALLY protected from EVERYTHING like...almost my whole life. if i go anywhere else, i'll probably have major culture shock. IN MY OWN COUNTRY. well..i've lived in hong kong for like 3 years when i was 8-10, but it was so long ago, i don't really remember that much. I [b]WANNA[/b] GO BACK TO HONG KONG SOOOOOOOOOOO BAD! argh. its not fair. cuz all my chinese friends are going back. EXCEPT FOR ME. and then my good friend i talked about in my last blog is going to china and korea and all these fun places AND NEVER COMING BACK TO UT. [b]WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH![ /b] i'm so sad my friend is moving! i've never really had a really good friend move away...*sniff sniff* i guess thats life. u lose ALL UR BFF'S and get new ones. doesn't life suck sometimes? YES. it does. anyhoo...nothing really has happened lately. thats my FUN life...
arrrgh...my nose is killing me!! spring is REALLY nice....except for ALLERGIES!! it ruins the PERFECTLY GORGEOUS weather. well, its actually getting kinda hot now, so it's not exactly PERFECT anymore...its really too bad that the perfect weather didn't last more than a week or two. anyway...my computer kinda crashed cuz of the STUPID virus that i got like...a long time ago, but inever got it removed cuz i was too lazy. so now it won't even work at all, so i have to bring it to my dad's so he can fix it. and i'm at the public LIBRARY right now(woopdeedoo), supposedly "doing my homework", which of course i'm not doing. nothing much has happened to me these last couple of days. i'm registering for next year's classes, and i don't know what i wanna take! but i've decided to take this web page designing class, so hopefully my site will look a lot more interesting in...like half a year...u all should be EXCITED for me, maybe...i'm probably gonna be really busy next year though...i never wrote about how i found out one of my good friend is moving a whole world away, did i? well, she's only moving like...hmm...i don't know how many states away(from utah to ohio), but it really makes no difference if she was moving to mars. i probably won't be seeing her again...*tears, sniff sniff* sigh...it seems like my whole group of friends is just...GONE. like i'm not friends with any of them anymore...1/2 of them moved away. and since the other half was me and my sister's ex's and i practically HATE them, i have NO ONE LEFT! waaaaaaa...this all makes me depressed. i miss being a little innocent 5 year old so badly...there really were no worries or anything except for how to steal a cookie from my mommy's cookie jar, or who's pants i'm gonna pull down that day(me and my friends used to pants ppl when we were like...3 :p). anyway...no use missing the old days...sigh....
oooh. its SO nice out. i really wanna go talk a walk under the stars right now. with my bf, if i had one. well...i don't really want one at the moment, but sometimes i just miss having a boo...to cuddle with and all that.... :P i'm feeling a lot better about my ex now. in fact i'm feeling like...overly jumpy right now. no idea why. its one of those days...haha. i found my bff's blog. i thought there was some big secret or something since she wouldn't tell me what it is, but its just...BORING. i feel so bad for her though...she liked my sister's bf a few months ago. and she liked him A LOT and even cried over him like every day too...:S its sad cuz she's even thought of suicide cuz of him. SCARY. i'm really glad she's over him now though. cuz now WE ALL know what a big fat selfish jerk face he is. seriously...i don't know anybody as selfish as him. ok...quick story on him: HE LEFT ME AND MY SISTER ALL ALONE UP IN NO WHERE LAND (SKI RESORT) WHEN HE COULD'VE TAKEN US HOME, BUT HE DIDN'T WANT TO GIVE US A RIDE CUZ HE'S A ^*&(&(*. seriously. that got me so mad. i had to call my mom who was far away from the place where we were. and he said HE DIDN'T CARE. what kind of friend is he??? can't imagine what he'd be like to strangers... i used to think he was cool. i feel bad for my sister who went out with him AND STILL LIKES HIM AFTER WHAT HE DID TO US. love really is blind. anyhoo...i saw my ex today. its all good between us now, i guess. sometimes i think he's still my bff, but other times it seems like he's not even my friend at all and i can't be his friend no matter how i try and want to be. oh man. ANTS r back in my house again. just like on the front door....eww. ants give me goosebumps. cuz once...i was sitting by the grass watching fireworks, and i didn't notice all these ants by me, and like...MILLIONS of them were on my foot and leg...*chills* it was THE nastiest thing...anyway...i've typed too much. better go b4 i never stop :D
hmm...i can't figure out how to do the template thing. ARGH. i found this really really REEEEEEEAALY cute one that i wanna use for my site, but i don't get how to do it. :P OH WELL. i guess my site will always just be BORING. anyway. its saturday today. hm. what fun stuff have i got planned? ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. ya. thats my life. great isn't it? maybe i'll go see a movie or something...i found out that my ex didn't go hang out with my "ex" friend yesterday, cuz she was busy. i wonder if they're hanging out today instead...what's wrong with me?? i don't get why i still even CARE who he hangs out with. it's none of my business. anyway. it was my dad's bday yesterday, and i made him a cake. i've been waiting with drool running down my mouth to TRY MY CAKE. my first time making it. french chocolate. YUM. with whipped cream frosting...yes! and we're finally gonna eat it NOW!
why does liking someone have to be painful? i don't know why, but i'm starting to kinda miss my ex again. i was just totally fine a few weeks ago...i dunno whats wrong with me..! ever since he told me he was gonna hang out with one of my "ex" friends today, i've been just really...jealous? i don't get myself sometimes...i never knew why i liked him. he really isnt anything i look for in a guy. he's missing a lot of the most important qualities i want. but i still fell HARD for him. and there's this...needle poking my heart every time i think about him. whyy??? my sad love story...i broke up with him the week of valentines day. is that so depressing? when i thought i'd finally have someone to spend v-day with, we break up 5 days b4. and thats not the only part that makes me MAD. i spent like my whole entire x-mas break making this thing for him to give him on v-day. i've never ever in my life spent that much time making something for ANYBODY. it took me like at least 20 hours to finish. and he didn't even get to SEE it. and i spent a lot of money on it too...*sigh* my stupidity...should've never made it in the first place. well...i guess i should've regret doing it for him cuz it was worth it back then...
*sigh*...i always think i'm over my ex, but i'm not sure anymore. maybe i'm not. i was talking to him a little while ago, and i was asking him what he was going to do tomorrow since we didn't have school, and he told me that he's hanging out with one of my friends whom i haven't talked to for a long time and whom i don't really like very much. she's like...so rude now. i dunno...why are girls so COMPETITIVE?! its so gay. i'm feeling kinda JEALOUS right now. i don't even know why....ARGH. I HATE THIS LOVE THING. i swear he like ruined my life. i'm constantly not happy becuz of him, even when we were going out. arrrrrrrrrggh.
OH MY GOSH....all computers can DIE! arrrrghhhh. or stupid idiot gay dancing MONKEY BUTT VIRUS MAKERS WITH NO LIFE NEED TO GO TO.....ya. i think my pc got yet ANOTHER virus. and nothing works. NOTHING. i'm surprised my pc is still alive at this moment and hadn't been beaten to death with a bat and ran over by my pickup truck(if i had one) a few hundred times. ANYWAY. life is going GREAT besides stupid computer problems. i'm especially loving the [b]weather[/b]! its so perfect. [b]perfect[/b] temperature, nice cool breeze, cloudless skies....i could totally [b]die[/b] in this weather...*sigh* i know i'm such a weirdo, but i really feel like kissing the sky cuz its so PRETTY sometimes. ok. enough about the weather. i'm a nerd, i know. who talks about the weather? nothing exciting ever happens in my life...not like my friend who had a ROBBER break into her house last night and almost got [b]SHOT[/b]. well, maybe it wasn't that serious, but at least something INTERESTING happens to her. or my OTHER friend who's bf got chased by some criminal who's wanted in several states and refused to pay him the cash for the um...crack he sold her. ok, i'm exaggerating a bit, only the crack part though. everything else is true. see? everyone has MUCh more exciting lives than me! well, not that i WANT that stuff to happen to me, but it would make my life a lot more interesting...anyhoo. i better just publish this stupid thing b4 the internet decides that "the internet explorer has experienced a problem and needs to close" again, so until next time...
this is my first time blogging! how exciting, huh? well on this account anyway. i already made like...5 accounts, but didn't like the names after i made them...i know i'm picky and a perfectionist. anyhoo...on to my SO VERY INTERESTING life everybody is [b]DYING[/b] to hear about. lets see...actually, there really isn't anything interesting about my life at the moment. it was full of teenage drama a few weeks ago, but my life has returned to its normal boring state again. hmmmm....lets see...i broke up with the love of almost my entire life(ok, it was more like 2 years, but thats almost a lifetime:P) like a month ago. depressing, yes. i seriously thought i'd never get over him, but i was ok after like a week. amazing recovery. really was. and i really did like him [b]A LOT[/b]. and i mean A LOT. i've liked him the most out of all the guys i've liked my entire life put together, and that is like...countless. but i guess things weren't working out that well between us. i just wasn't really ever HAPPY with him. its a lot better just being friends with him. even though i THINK i still kinda like him. but of course thats normal, right? sometimes i don't know what he's thinking. he's normal and nice one minute, and the next he practically won't even LOOK at me. and that really hurts. sometimes it seems like he doesn't even care about me anymore, but my friend talked to him a few days ago, and she told me that he said he "still misses me sometimes." that made me feel a lot better. i don't really wanna even get back together with him though...ANYWAY. enough about my love life. not that i have one right now...it feels good to just be single and free again. without any crushes or anything. ok. i should stop now. i seriously can go on FOREVER. well, leave me some comments everyone!
ABOUT ME
NAME: Starr
AGE: 16
SIGN: libra
LOCATION: UT, US
HEIGHT: 5'3 ish. i know..i'm SHORT :(. sniff sniff*
HAIR COLOR: naturally black, but i colored it a medium brown
EYE COLOR: BEAUTIFUL dark brown (j/k...i think brown is the most boring color. i wish i had GORGEOUS aqua colored eyes...)
COLOR: PINK,pastel colors
FOOD: chocolate, cheesecake, cold stone ice cream *drool*
LOVES: dance, SHOPPING, photography, fashion
